This is Dedicated to all of you who have been Heart Broken before

We have all been there. Shattered and left picking up the fragments of our hearts.
And while people say "Time heals all" it really doesn't, does it?
For example, its not that easy to get over a broken heart.
You try to put the pieces back together after someone leaves you,
 some one dies,
 someone hurts you,
 some one betrays you.
You feel exposed.
Raw.
Vulnerable.
You opened yourself so much to another being.
You had kept no secrets from them.
It was only you and them.
But now its just you, after them.
Because life still continues, even when we are stuck, slowly drowning in quicksand of emotions.
Anger.
Hate.
Sadness.
Regret.
Guilt.
Back to sadness.
Back to hurt.
And it continues all over again.
Viciously sinking us to a deep dark place in all of us no one has ventured into.
That place makes us see the ugliest part in ourselves that we fear show others.
And when you finally surface from the pit of solitude,
You start to see the world differently.
Everything moves faster and slower and no one really is aware of your existence.
You could be crying in the middle of a sidewalk and people will just walk around you. 
Like rocks in a river.
The earth still spins.
The sun still shines.
Everyone is the same.
Everything is the same.
Except you.
So you start to change, the you after them. You build walls to protect yourself a little better.
You are braver.
Stronger.
Smarter.
Everything is okay on the outside.
Because despite actually getting up in the morning, and going to work, and doing thing like everyone else now, the normal way.... there are still times when you think you see them in a crowd.
Or you hear a song your used to sing together.
Or smell a scent they used to wear a lot.
And your bandaged heart tears a little. And you allow yourself to cry a little but then you shake yourself off. 
With your shoulders set straight you decide to look forward.
Start new.
Blank page.
New slate.
No more them.
Because you will always have you.
You will always put yourself before any of them now.
You are just as important as anybody else.
You owe it to yourself, not to anybody.
So maybe its true, time does heal all. 
Since you have to give yourself time to fully love yourself before you can love anybody else...


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